Decisions, decisions.

When it comes to being stuck at a dilemma, no one is more of an expert than I am. If you have found yourself in such situations time and again and are looking for a way out, I am afraid, you have come to the wrong place. I give no answers or solutions, just an aggressive nod of a head at how relatable your predicament is to me. More than you would want to admit, you have been caught in these plights.

New year is just around the corner and you want to set some resolutions (NY is gone but just play along with me). Do you want to set a big ass goal once and for all and make a huge deal about it or do you want to keep it simple and keep it to yourself? If you go big, you might have the pressure to fulfill it (but just about everybody fails in their resolutions, isn't it? why not act like you're working on it for a few weeks until everyone forgets about it?) And if you go low-key, no one will know and you might even ignore it, sweep it under the carpet like you meant to anyways.

You want to go for a big makeover. Say you have a short hair (Oh my God, me too! What a coincidence). You've always had (again, go along with me) You know how big of a deal growing your hair and taking care of it can be. And hair do what they always do - work on pure whim, today they look good and make you hope they will not let you down, and the next day they go, JK! Do you hang on to the hope and spend day upon day, waiting for your hair to grow fast already! Or. Do you just keep it simple, crop it down every now and then? No hassle.

You want to travel the world. Do you spend 6 months in this country, make friends, explore places, connect, grow and then one day just leave to start over again; and make a place for yourself in a whole new place just to leave again? Oh the dream! Or do you want to settle down, find a job, start a family, create a place where you will belong?

Tell me, have you loved someone so much that it feels like the sweetest pain that you can never get enough of against all sense? Three paragraphs in and I always jump to the serious bit. Yeah, You have at least once in your lifetime have fallen in love with someone who couldn't ever love you back the way you loved them. Your head screams at you to run at the opposite direction, your friends don't seem to understand why you stand the hurt like you do, your heart is always, always on the verge of being crushed to the point that you have to be impressed you are still alive and functioning at all. This is when you question yourself, can you still do it? It is never about should you or should you not. Someone has very rightly said that hope is the worst of all evils because all it does is just prolong the torments of man. Can you afford to hope? Can you let go? Do you let go?

I told you I offer no answers. I lied. When in doubt, do both. Make resolutions, lots of them, (if you wanna), announce some, hide some (no one cares anyways). Grow your hair some, and cut it down, (no one will notice anyways). Find a job that you love, settle down, go on vacations (wasn't so hard, was it?) And finally, there is not an exact time frame for getting over someone. Forgive yourself if you can't forget someone. Love them all you want. You won't be able to tell, but everyday that you cry for them, your reservoir shrinks, if only by the littlest bit. Be patient.

Go sit on a rock somewhere, the decisions won't necessarily come to you but at least you'll enjoy the view.

Finis